There
was me – the tomboy whose only interest was the outdoors. The girl who never
thought about any boys, cliques, jewelry, makeup, hair styles or anything else
a 12 – 13 year old girl would think about.
The majority of things that were on my mind were fishing, hunting, and
camping – besides the wood splitting, woodstove tending, cooking, cleaning
(indoors and outdoors), and tending the garden. I had no time for friends
unless they wanted to go four wheeling, snowmobiling, or fishing. Boys stuck
their nose up at me at walked away when they saw me. I mean, why wouldn’t they?
I had short hair like a guy, wore glasses, was overweight, and had absolutely
no girly side to me. I was undesirable and straight-up invisible to the world
besides to my family – and I didn’t care.
Then,
there was my teenage self. A complete transformation from who I had originally been.
I moved away from the woods, met new friends, and allowed myself to do their
hobbies: drugs. I didn’t care about school, family, or my health. I was just in
it for the high of the ride. I got into trouble, did things I probably shouldn’t
have done, and hung out with people that were bad news. I was your
stereotypical doped up teenager ‘living up’ their teenage years. I had thought
that that was the only way to have fun in life. I was so caught up in the
moment, that I never remembered what it was like to just sit back and relax
with a fishing rod in my hands.
Now,
there is I, Mrs. Jessica Ricker – a completely transformed woman from the previous
Miss Jessica Webber. My teenage years are completely behind me now, and I am
100% sober. I have a better handle on my life then I ever have before. I am
full time college student and am newly married to the most amazing Marine ever!
We also have the most adorable three month old baby together! Now that we are
officially a military family, we are getting ready to move out of state to a
Marine base once Kevin gets through all his training. My new life is finally
falling into place, and I couldn’t ask for anything better!
Those
three people who wouldn’t ever find themselves associating with each other,
finally came together as a whole to create who I am today. There was Me; the
all too innocent 12 year old who never wanted kids. There was Myself; the bad
chick who never wanted to settle down. Then there was I; the completely transformed
woman with a beautiful family. They say life is a rollercoaster. Well, my
rollercoaster has gone up and down and every which way, until it finally shot
off the tracks and landed in the clouds. I am up on cloud nine and I am never
coming down!
Well, this breaks all the rules. Instead of contrasting two things over three ways they are different, you take snapshots of yourself at three different times in life and look at the differences.
ReplyDeleteBut, you know what?--it works. It does make contrasts, it does deal with details, it is worth reading and , I assume, worth writing. It has its own strange structure, but it is definitely structured.
I'm happy to take such a nice piece.
I'm glad that you like it and are accepting it
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